Saturday, March 15, 2008
RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN.gosh,it's like,the weather's menopausing or smth.making me all gloomy and depressed.
AJ CHOIR PEOPLE WHO'RE FLYING OFF TO ITALY!PAMELA NG JING FANG! FLEA NG!! BEST OF LUCK KAY?! i dont hear your plane flying over my house leh. ):LOL. earrings for me again! LOL.
somehow,i had lots of stuff to blog about,but i've simply forgotten them all lah. ):
going out nowadays seems totally pointless,cos 99.99% of the time,i'll prob end up by myself or smth.what do i do?talk to my piano?or make friends with the entire town area??
what with most people goin to JC and moving on,it's not entirely a bad thing.im not saying i dont miss my friends.i do,but change is an inevitable part of life.sooner or later,i'll also go on to make friends in poly too.
but sometimes i cant help feeling left behind.in a way,im kinda lost,and very in need of guidance.i need a shrink or smth.
waiting for poly to start leaves me with a sense of insecurity. i dont know what the future holds for me,but somehow,i dont wanna end up with just a diploma.but,im glad in a way that i didnt go to JC,because i'll just die even more horribly anyway.
i dont know if i made the right choice in choosing to go ahead and take piano diploma lessons too. im just PLAIN SCARED that i'll flunk the whole thing. really.it totally freaks me out. (and i must say it's not exactly cheap either)
what if. what if i flunk in both diplomas?
it's 12.30am now,and im supposed to be dead and oblivious to the world by now aka asleep.but,im kept awake by alot of thoughts.
ME.
Go ahead, spill