yes.
right now, right here, i feel like committing murder in a blink of an eye.


somehow. random things piss me off nowadays.


i have to BREAAAAATHEEEEEEEE. and. CALM DOWN. whatever happened to my sanity?!!


no.i dont want your freaking sympathy or whatever it's called, if it's even sympathy at all.you're pathetic to begin with.


say hello to joanne, the future spinster.once is funny. twice is enough.


with the damage you've done, you might as well had just taken a knife to stab me , or trample all over my non-existent pride.


thank you very very much.


i am feeling no better than i am supposed to.yes. i am babbling incoherently,because i realise that ranting last night didnt solve anything.

in fact, I FEEL WORSE. i simply dont know what's wrong.



hey. do me a favour. shut up will you.


just. throw my piano away. i dont care. i dont want this stupid thing anymore. if it wasnt because you threatened to sell it, i wouldn't have taken anymore lessons already. honest.


i mean. who the heck needs a diploma like that?!!! (NOTE: i am on the verge of going berserk) I DO NOT WANT/ DO NOT INTEND TO USE anything like that at all in future for god's sake!

for now, i just wanna get through the exam asap and just DUMP THIS ENTIRE THING FOR ONCE AND FOR ALL.FULL STOP.


it's making me hate everything even more.


i didnt use to have a temper like that in the past. i used to be more able to understand and empathise with people, and i'd be:"it's okay. i understand" to whatever was thrown at me.

what happened to that ability of mine? did it fly off within these 5 months of school? or is it just missing for now,waiting for me to claim it back???


i need answers, i dont know what's happening.


i wish i had someone to talk to. someone who doesnt freaking 'hmmm' and 'oh i see' to whatever you say.cos this is equivalent to talking to a wall.