hm.


i've been told that,

i'm lacking a conscience and a heart.


i'm lacking feelings.

i'm lacking the care and concern i should have for people around me.

maybe someone could give me a kinder heart for New Year eh.


2008 was.

a total blur.

i remember that very horrible feeling when the JC people started school, and i was stuck quite alone until April. (okay. please get this. im not complaining here okay.)

they were pretty busy with Orientation and whatnots. i suppose the whatever feeling you call it got kinda worse. there was quite alot of self doubting.

then...school started. camps were fine.

i'm fine with my schoolmates so far, but i'm not exactly chummy with them. and i do not believe my social skills are THAT bad okay.


aiyah. i still dont know if i made the right choice going to poly. but something tells me i'd have been worse off in JC anyway.


to forgive and forget.

when people quarrel it is then they say the truth, albeit not meaning to do so.

some people, i find, are still quite socially inept. to the extent that i find it IDIOTIC.

i think i somehow dropped all my feelings on the way as i got older.dropped them into the drain, and never got them back.

i learnt to deal with people, and learnt that the world isnt just fairytales and candy afterall.

what a whirlwind 2008 has been for me.