I fell, i picked myself up, and i worked hard. I succeeded. I was hoping for a WEE bit of acknowledgement. You said, "You should have done this previously"
It's not a matter of whether I'm good enough, because i freaking realise I'll NEVER be good enough for your standards anyway.
I think I'm going out to drink pretty frequently nowadays(for normal standards) because I'm subconsciously troubled, and it's just that I'm in denial about it.