Day 'N':

Currently: I smell paint everywhere in the house, no thanks to Tiger Mum going on some painting spree like some crazed person. I really don't see the point of painting the walls anyway. ( And to be honest, her painting skills really suck, so it's might as well she doesn't paint the walls at all)

Current state of mind: Much more clear headed than I was before, as compared to 2 weeks back. I sometimes catch myself drifting down a path of thoughts that I know I really shouldn't take. Mentally slap myself, then stop it. My firiends have been very sweet, replying to my whingeing texts, bearing with it all. (':  I've been through quite a lot of psychoing to stop being bitter, and I wanna stop being so bitter as soon as possible. Post mortems are of no use, because hindsight is 200%. I still believe that if 2 people are meant for each other, they'd find their way back no matter what.

In any case, I feel like the person in mention doesn't deserve any form of explanation, period. I cannot be bothered to enlighten this person as well. I'll let him learn for himself the hard way, simply because he needs to.

I am slowly picking up , exploring new people , going on impromptu shit and outings with people, chilling at close friends' houses, throwing caution to the wind. Sometimes I pass by certain places and a particular memory comes into mind, but I push it out and focus on the person at hand.

It's going to be difficult, but I will try, simply because I deserve to.

Some things I need to keep in mind :

"Someone has significantly told you that you're just not that important to him, so why're you so hung up about someone like that?"

"Yes leave it up to him. You're leaving someone that makes you unhappy. That's a good step. You're leaving bad things behind"

I realise that Etiquetteforalady helps me wake up to my silly thoughts, so I need to browse this site more often to remind myself that life is too short to be unhappy. Really.