Someone once told me " There will never be gender equality. If you always fight for gender equality, then tell the guys to start giving birth to babies. Tell the girls to stop expecting guys to pay for dates. Impossible, right? So how will we ever achieve gender equality between males and females ? "


This gave me some food for thought, as it made logical sense. If you're talking about gender equality in the literal sense, then let's start from the physical aspects. We're already struggling with that, so where do we go from here?


Something triggered me to go and read my past blog posts, and I was rather intrigued by my own writing, because it's exactly how I would write in my current self.

I think I'm starting to feel the effects of being the only child of my parents. I feel that I'm rather detached when it comes to forging close relationships, and it takes quite a bit of time for me to let people into my circle intimately. I dislike sharing on an emotional level , which is why I will always have to overcome my own internal hurdles when I date someone.

How do I put this. I cannot stand it when someone I'm seeing goes out with another female alone. Now please, before you start rolling your eyes, let me elaborate. These feelings only arise when something about the female puts me off in a certain way, be it her mannerisms, behaviour or appearance. I don't behave like that with every female okaaaay.

I would say it is a mixture of insecurity, disdain and / or inferiority complex. I'm constantly fearful of the possibility of being not good enough, self pitying on the fact that I may not be as good looking as the others. So how much is enough?

I'm gonna need time to overcome this hurdle of my own , and to realise that all this is just gonna be a vicious cycle of distrust.